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When Was The Last Time You Were Held Lovingly & Allowed To Just Cry

April 26, 2012


As a single woman…I have managed my life pretty darn well on my own. Have realized my strength and courage to be able to stand on my own & make my way through this crazy world. I have learned that I am capable of being my own best friend, my own best company and to Love me for Me. I am comfortable being alone & to be in silence too. (I just realized as I’m typing out this blog post…I’ve got no music, TV, radio or noise of any kind around me; and I am alright with the silence.)

Coming to the conclusion that I have mastered being on my own and have gotten over some traps that I tripped over in the past, like: “needing a man to complete me or fix me or make me happy or that I need to fix a man to be needed.”
I am content in my Self and now no longer need to prove to myself or anyone else that I need to be “do it all on my own .” I am now open to the idea in finding a loving partner who will be my Equal, my Partner & my Complement to me and who will add to my life.

I have been going through some very personal and trying times this past month. It occurred to me today….when was the last time I was just held in the arms of a man and felt safe enough to be vulnerable and just cry? I have to say…I am stumped to come up with a specific memory of this…just to be held & allowed to cry, no other need or want but to be held & be allowed to openly cry & not to be silenced or shhhhed or be told “don’t cry.” I cannot recall a time when I was allowed to openly cry with a man like I’ve described. I am shocked and a little saddened that it has taken me this long in my life to realize that this is such a huge want that I do have.

I am a huge advocate of equality and like to stay away from stereo typical rolls….but there seems to be some Huge Primordial need to be held by the opposite sex and be allowed to be vulnerable…to be allowed to feel so safe that you can fall to pieces for that moment in time & that you will be supported & cared for….that they have your back and will hold you for as long as it takes for the tears to subside.

So….let me ask you.
When was the last time you were held lovingly & allowed to just cry?

Until next time… Make each day count!

Be Open & Allow others to support you,
Nicole

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When Breaking Down Leads To A BreakThrough

December 10, 2011

Looking back through the year…there has been many, many changes. Last year at this time…I was at the beginning stages of my Breakdown; A BreakDown to get to my BreakThrough. I honestly fought this deep, deep lonely feeling until I could fight it no longer…As I laid in a pile of soiled tissues, chest heaving to that way down deep pain…pain & cries of the most primordial cry that we can produce.

My world disappeared before my eyes…the world where I knew who I was…what I was supposed to be doing…and how I fit into this world. Everything that I knew to be true…was yanked out from beneath my feet. Everything that I thought I had learned in the last 11 years, was coming to face me during this stripped away time…every lesson I went through came back to visit me, to see if I truly understood & got the lessons…got the lessons & could apply these lessons at a time when I was in my spiritually raw moments…when the masks were stripped off & the real, unpolished Me was just left to deal with these lessons.
My heart cried the tears that had been forgotten about so many years ago…my soul cracked open to let out the dark trapped feelings of fear…fear of being less than enough.

With the help of the Creator, my Guides, my friends and my soul family…I borrowed their strength to help me raise up once again…dust myself off and go through this Storm…the Storm of facing who I was & who I wasn’t…it was my Dark Night of The Soul. (This Dark Night… lasted for me about 4 months, not 1 night)

Going through this very troubling time has given me so many gifts that I would not have had without going through this dark & very tough period of time…It has given me…ME, who I am.

So… here’s my 2 cents on when breaking down leads to a break through.

1. BreakDown = Breaking Down All Defenses
2. BreakDown = Breaking Down All Old Patterns
3. BreakDown = Breaking Down All Blocks to Authentic Self
4. BreakDown = Breaking Down All that is no longer Serving your Higher Self
5. BreakThrough = Knowing Who you Are
6. BreakThrough = Knowing What your Soul is Here to Do
7. BreakThrough = Learning to Love All of Yourself
8. BreakThrough = Learning to Accept your past & Acknowledging great learning from your past
9. BreakThrough = Knowing You are Strong enough to go through Anything
10. BreakThrough = Fully Opening your Heart & Soul…to Love Greater than you have ever done before

May your BreakDown lead to your BreakThrough with Divine Grace…that leads to your Heart and Soul Opening.

Until next time… Make each day count!

Be of Heart & Soul,
Nicole

Humbleness & Childlike & Gratitude

November 30, 2011

These past few weeks have brought back many lessons to me in reflection…to see if I have remembered the learning from these lessons. Some lessons were remembered very well and I handled myself in a respectful & mature manner. Others….(Sigh!) still learning these lessons and have more work to do in these areas. The lessons that I thought I had learned so well last time…really humbled me this time, I got the full impact of how this lesson affects others around me when I’m not in my integrity & staying with my learned lessons. It is within the Humbleness & Gratitude that I received the learning once again…this time deeper learning took place.

I am reposting a blog from July 2010 on Humbleness and Childlike and Gratitude.

Humbleness & Childlike & Gratitude

There has been much discussion on how to tap into Source (Spirit, Creator, God, Goddess…)to receive Energy, Spiritual Enlightenment & our unique Gifts. There was the old and very limiting ways that served their purpose for many years; by studying many years with a Sage, Wise One or Spiritual Teacher, spending many, many hours in devote meditations for years and in servitude to your Teacher to show your worthiness This idea of obtaining Spiritual Enlightenment has changed very little for many years…until recently! Recently (last 10 – 5 years) there has been an Energetic Shift in the Mass Consciousness…This Shift has tested & in many cases broken the old ways of obtaining Spiritual Enlightenment. The Shift has caused many to ask the deep inner questions & by doing so have looked within…rather than to Others to find these answers. How, you may ask do they receive the knowledge they are seeking & find Spiritual Enlightenment. Stay open, humble & childlike.

So… here’s my 2 cents on staying humble, childlike & in gratitude.

1. Humbleness is: Knowing that Source is the Healer, Teacher, Writer, Painter…
2. Humbleness is: Becoming the Vessel for Source to channel the healing, teaching, writing, paining Through us
3. Humbleness is: Letting Go of your EGO and letting Source IN
4. Humbleness is: Remembering we are ALL the Great I AM…We care All ONE
5. Childlike is: Staying in a Pure state of Wonder
6. Childlike is: Being Open to Receive information, however it comes to YOU
7. Childlike is: Knowing that we sometimes (most times) do not know & this is alright
8. Childlike is: Staying Curious and having FUN along the Road of Discovery & Learning
9. Gratitude is: Acknowledging the Gifts you Receive
10. Gratitude is: Using the Gifts you receive for the highest good of all (Not controlling others or making yourself “better” than others)
11. Gratitude is: Sharing your Gifts with Others
12. Gratitude is: Saying Thank You to Source and Sharing with others

What Gifts have you shared recently?

Have you given thanks to Source lately?

Until next time… Make each day count!
Be Curious,
Nicole

5 Myths That Keep You Shut Down

November 13, 2011

November has just begun and yet it feels like it has been a long month already. Changes are prevalent and are World Wide now…the only constant being that there Is Change.
With the economy seeming to be in the toilet everywhere, there is fear & unease about job security and just being able to meet the basics of life. Yet the very nature of the HuMan Spirit is to Triumph in the face of adversity & Overcome many obstacles, because this is what it means to Live.  As we remember who we truly are, we help others around us remember who they are too.

I am reposting a very timely blog post from 2010 that speaks to the very nature of shining the Light of Truth on the myths that are to keep us in darkness…to keep us shut down and in pain.

Be in the Light of Truth and Know that you are so much More than these
myths…so much more. Blessings to All.

This past year has shaken many people to their very core. The myths that they were told into adulthood came crashing down around them. This caused a lot of people to re-evaluate their values, beliefs and their moral systems. A strong feeling of deception has been brewing among the young, middle aged and older generations alike. What they were told growing up is no longer working. I’m not being all doom and gloom; I’m just stating what the common strong feeling is at this time…DECEPTION.

So….here’s my 2 cents on 5 myths that keep you shut down.

1. You Are Defined By Your Job/Career
What a load of crap! You are defined by what Actions You Take in this world. Jobs and careers come and go; jobs get downsized, you can get fired, you can quite or the company can just go broke. But you my friend, always have you and you always have choices that lead to actions. Doing nothing is an action, a non-action. Get back into the game and be defined by something you CAN control – YOUR ACTIONS.

2. Money & Status Brings Happiness
Money does not buy happiness! Money can buy happy – a short term feeling that comes and goes. Happiness comes from the inside out…NOT the outside in. When you believe that money and things buy you happiness; you are dependent on outside factors to make You Feel Something. Happiness is a choice you make personally…really. If you decide you want to have happiness today; then just do it. No one can deter you from this state of being but you.

3. Having The Best… Just To Keep Up
The very idea of trying to keep up with: the neighbors, your friends, your family or you’re the THEY’S is ridiculous. This way of thinking puts you on the treadmill of life; I have to work long hours to buy the bigger house, I have to have the bigger TV, I have to go on the best vacation… on and on this goes. To who’s idea of The Best are you living up to, your own? When the idea of inner satisfaction is higher on the WANT scale then you are in your own head; you will do things for your own well being and Not for the sake of keeping up with everyone else.

4. The Career choice You chose At 18 Or 22 Is It For Life
What!??? Are you telling me that at this young age, you know who you really were? (Okay, so Scott Ginsberg is the exception). Most people at that age don’t have a clue to what they Really want out of life yet, I didn’t. Finding your true work passion usually starts to nudge you in your mid 30’s; and if completely ignored will SHOVE you to Full Alert status in you 40’s. This is the time when you begin to ask such questions as: Who the hell am I? Why did I choose this career again? Is this all there is to life? This is the time that you need to take for You by Yourself and ask the real honest questions about what makes you unique. What gifts can you share with others? What talents do you have that you enjoy doing for hours if you could?

5. Life Is Meant To Be A Struggle
Utter nonsense! Life is meant to be enjoyed! When you have uncovered and found the true You, life is flowing and abundant. When life feels like a struggle, you are pleasing someone else’s idea of what you Should Do. Be brave and take the time to go within and meet your true self for the first time. You cannot live the life of peace and happiness if you are pretending to be someone else. When you get real and honest with yourself… all else falls away and You show up. Believe that you are worth getting to know and life will stop being a struggle.

What myths are you willing to shatter?
Have you spent time with your TRUE Self today?
Until next time… Make each day count!
Be YOU,
Nicole

Creating A New Way Of Life

October 24, 2011


Has the world gone crazy OR has the world just woken up & realizing what’s going on???

My belief is that there are enough people around the globe who have Simply Had Enough!
Enough of the Corruption from the very Governments who are supposed to protect them. Enough of the Lies their Leaders have told them. Enough of the Money Scams being played out in plain sight – Governments bailing out Big Corporations & Banks only to have these very same Corporations payout Huge bonuses to the top executives, lay off 100’s or 1000’s of workers & Raise interest rates and service fees against the very same people whose taxes went into these bailouts.

I could go on & on about what’s wrong in the world right now…each case being more & more dismal then the last…but I refuse to write about such doom & gloom…I see the Spark that has Light A Huge Flame in the Hearts of People all over the Globe. The very reasons for Occupy Peaceful Protests around the Globe are as wide and varied as the very people who are participating in them. The One uniting factor for those who are called to join their voices to the Occupy movements is this…The current system Is Not Working & it is Time for Change.

So… here’s my 2 cents on the creating a new way of life.

Instead of fixing a very broken & non-working system…Lets Create A New Way Of Life.

1. Create a new way of life…Share services and goods with friends, neighbors & communities by opting out of paying with money…exchanging of services/goods for other services/goods
2. Create a new way of life…Live to LIVE…dump the consumerism mentality that has forced many into debt by “needing the very latest gadget to hit the market”…Be happier with less “stuff”
3. Create a new way of life…Work in jobs less & Meditate more…quieting the Mind Creates More Good
4. Create a new way of life…Be Authentically You; share your True self with other free from judgment & ridicule
5. Create a new way of life…Love each other Unconditionally & wish for others to Be Well Always

Let’s Create a New Way of Life…Together

Until next time… Make each day count!

Be Loving,
Nicole

The Forgotten Ones

October 5, 2011

This has been an incredibly tough week for me personally…Emotions came bursting to the surface last Friday and I’ve been on a rollercoaster ride of Emotions ever since. Now, having worked on my emotional naming, clearing and releasing for over 12 years now, I can easily share my emotions freely with others and not have the need to apologize for tearing up or crying when I need to do so.

This week has been the most Raw that I’ve felt in such a long time…It cut through so deep down. Deep down to the very Core of my being…and then deeper than that at times. Speaking with others, they are also saying this as well…raw emotions just coming forth for them as well.

Just the other day I was given a message to reflect upon…dealing directly with my emotions & past buried emotions. The answer that came up for me was…”I don’t want to be Forgotten Again.” This simple sentence was softly spoken to me from Spirit…Yet this simple sentence made me double over in such deep, deep pain…I knew this was Truth. I didn’t want to be Forgotten…again. Then, I thought about how much we are all alike and share in the most basic needs & emotions…this is a Universal Hurt when we are Forgotten.

So… here’s my 2 cents on the forgotten ones.

1. Forgotten = Gone from memory
2. Forgotten = Easily ignored
3. Forgotten = Not memorable enough
4. Forgotten = Disappeared from existence
5. To be Forgotten is an incredibly hurtful feeling
6. To be Forgotten is a very isolating feeling
7. To be Forgotten makes one doubt their Self-Worth
8. To be Forgotten makes you feel so small and vulnerable
9. When we are Forgotten…we are devalued
10. When we are Forgotten…we are judged unimportant
11. When we are Forgotten…we are hurt by others ignoring our being
12. When we are Forgotten…we Hurt Deeply
13. Choosing to step out of the Pain…We Claim our Own Self-Worth
14. Choosing to step out of the Hurt…We Claim our Power
15. Choosing to step out of the Isolation…We Claim our own Attention
16. Choosing to step out of the Forgotten place…We Claim our Sovereign Rights Once More!

Claim your Power.
Claim your Sovereignty.

Until next time… Make each day count!

Be Remembered Once Again,
Nicole

What Would Happen If We Just Walked Away

August 10, 2011

As a Lightworker who is Awake and Aware I’m seeing the gap that is present now in the mindsets of many. The mind set of Us and Them, Good and Evil, Too Much and Not Enough. There is no Us and Them…this is the Illusion that has been created to keep us thinking in small and limited ways. Separation is impossible as Everything is connected; Air, Earth, Water & Life are all interconnected to each other. There can be no Separation because everything is made from Energy…therefore Energy = Connection = Life = Humanity.

Having this understanding and seeing the larger picture, step it down to now see the world as it is right now….Humanity has been told for so long that We must take from one another to ensure We get Enough because there is Lack. (this includes wars, natural resources, food, land, animals, and possessions) This is the Very Lie that We have been born into for so long now…that We accept this to be truth…It Is Not!
We Are All Connected…what happens to one of us….affects us all.

What would happen if today We decided we’ve had enough of the slave system & simply protested by not showing up for our crap jobs, not showing up for the dead end, mind numbing, useless & intolerable jobs that we keep bitching about.
What Would The World Look Like if Everyone just started to Do what they Absolutely LOVE to Do…without money ever exchanging hands…being COMPLETELY Compensated by Others Doing what they really LOVE to Do.  ~ Just Take the Money OUT of the Equation ~
What Would That World Look Like?!?

So… here’s my 2 cents on what would happen if we just walked away.

1. What if…Others who also had enough joined you & helped you to create this idea
2. What if…This became a neighborhood movement & a new way of life for all in it
3. What if…People started to Become more happy & loving beings…all the time
4. What if…This was the very idea that sparked Real Lasting Change in your city
5. What if…Everyone started to really care for each other & give freely just Because
6. What if…This is the way it was supposed to be; Sharing & Caring for all…no matter what
7. What if…This idea Helps Unite Countries by focusing on the Sameness of All
8. What if…This was the very idea that sparked a Global Lasting Change
9. What if…This is the very idea that Bring in World Peace
10. What if…This Really Worked!

What’s stopping you from changing the world?

Have wondered What If lately?

Until next time… Make each day count!

Be Different,
Nicole